july 4th means what to me:
that I just had a birthday. this one was 29 and it was hard. one more year to 30 and the hard truth that I will NOT be married by this time next year. Truth be told, I was rather melancholy and cried a couple times just in having to embrace that fact. I hate being single. I mean, I’m good at it and I realize it has its advantages, but I’m tired of it and I always hoped I’d be with someone by 30. . . . .
sadly, july 4th is a day off and a day to drink beer and yell at fabulous fireworks. I think about our nation’s independence, but not enough to make it feeeeeeeeel anything.
that being said, I was at a friend’s party tonight and got to slip-n-slide. now that is good, clean, harmless fun!!!
s Said:
on July 9, 2008 at 4:59 pm
I know that not many folks get the privilege of reading this blog…so, I hope what I’m about to write doesn’t sound too, forward? You haven’t mentioned your therapist lately…so I’m just wondering about how you’re doing with the whole internal-life scenario.
mad scientist Said:
on July 10, 2008 at 10:39 pm
not forward at all. my life is an “open blog” so to speak. I have many different thoughts swirling around my head but I am making feeble attempts to actually catch them and dig in again. . . . . avoidance anyone?