angsty.
frustrated.
unsettled.
ok, just breathe.
so I thought I’d lost my job a couple weeks ago from someone’s big mouth. turns out I still have a job, but my friend and co-worker is out. Things have been tense for the past week, he’s worried and stressed and there is an underlying tension between us because I was chosen and he was not. It’s obviously more complicated than that, but when you boil down to the human emotion of it, that’s what it is. It sucks.
I’ve been contemplating a job change for awhile now. But now I feel even more indebted to my boss because she wants to keep me around, even though my salary is higher than my coworker’s. I don’t have a job waiting for me, but I keep wondering how I’m going to leave and what it’ll mean to everyone else. I read a review article today about how research comes out with one simplified statement and the average consumer tries to implement that single change versus looking at nutrition with a holistic view (ie, fat is bad, avoid eating it, calcium is good for bones, take it in a pill and you’ll be fine–wrong, wrong, wrong). This article excited me and I devoured it, sentence by sentence. This is my passion, nutrition research as it touches the mass media. Okay, great, where is that job?
I’m almost done with month one of having a roommate. Things are going really well. We are both mature adults, friends already, both independent. For some reason, I’m waiting for the other shoe to drop. For instance, she hasn’t cleaned the house yet. . .I did it last Sunday for about 2 hours. I kept waiting to get mad because I was cleaning while she was at the dog park. I didn’t. Will I? Why am I worried about something that hasn’t happened yet?
My brother was supposed to be here 2 hours ago. I drove home early to get things ready for him (towels, beer, chips). I drove back to have drinks with friends when I realized I forgot to leave my keys. I canceled plans in order to have the house unlocked. He hasn’t shown up. His cell phone is turned off. I could have met my friends and gotten back here in time. humpf.
I’ve had a small crush on someone for the past year. I don’t know him that well, but his lifestyle is attractive to me. He’s now in a relationship with someone. WHEN DO I GET MINE????????????????????
Wow, what a pity party! Glad I only invited myself.
